ED, oh my dearest ED,
Deep inside I always knew it would be you and me.
We were like two strangers in the same place, walking side by side but never meeting, feeling that same feeling of emptiness.
And then we met, and you became my life. You made me feel so good about myself; all the pain which followed me for years was gone. You showed me how strong and beautiful I can be and made me feel like I was on top of the world.
We seemed like we could last forever, we needed each other, and we loved each other. With all the power in the world, united in strength. We were One.
Then it all went downhill. You became my addiction. A drug is a drug, no matter how good it makes you feel. Every high was followed by a low, each low taking my hope away piece by piece. You made me feel worthless, weak. You made me fade away. The beauty and love have been replaced with sorrow, pain, self-doubt and self-hate. I finally see your true colors.
So we're at war now, and you have won some battles. You are strong, I'll give you that, but I am stronger, and I will win the war. I will have the last say. I want total destruction and I won't settle for less.
So ED, a day will come and I will be able to say that you are my past.
That I can promise.